Miranda Bear

Performance Purple Team

“I am a wife and a mom to 4 great boys.  In my free time, I enjoy cheering on my boys in all their sports as well as watching Boilermaker football/ basketball with my family!  I am so blessed to have such a amazing support system! Let’s do this!” 


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7.5.17

I feel like life has been stuck in fast forward since Saturday! 

The emotions hit me as soon as I turned onto Scott Road off of Illinois Road Saturday morning as soon as I saw the signs lining the sidewalk in front of Sonrise Church the alumni made for each of us as contestants!  And then to see all the volunteers buzzing around putting the finishing touches on things....wow....talk about touching!!! The energy was so high as soon as I pulled in to the parking lot - which was so amazing!  I kept trying to tell myself that it was just another one of our saturday runs - to help calm my nerves - yeah, that didnt work!  Seeing everyone in their race shirts made it real....this was the day we'd been training so hard for!!  Yikes!! 

When Ashley sounded the alarm that started the race - I kept hearing all the coaches voices in my head telling me all the tips from the past 14 weeks.  And then I kept replaying them all during the whole race!  Even though it looked like I ran the race by myself - I had a whole crew of coaches running with me!  (which got me thru to the finish line)  My goal was to find Shawn and stay behind him the entire race.  He has been so inspiring to me as we had been training!  He somehow finds the strength to "just keep swimming" as Dori would say!  I managed to stay with him up until mile 2 and then I had to set him free like a little bird.  I just couldn't manage to keep his pace - darn it!  But, God sent me little shots of energy throughout the course with friends and family cheering me on!  First a friend was walking as we entered into The Fountain.  Then in the heart of the fountain my boss was in his driveway waiting for me with his morning coffee - I got a mug raise and our 'Boiler up'  - that got me going thru mile 3 and on to mile 4.  A few honks on Illinois pushed me thru to the Church - where a coworker was waiting and then past Deer Ridge where the family was waiting to fill my tank.

That's when it set in (as I ran thru the "tunnel") Oh dear Lord....I have to do that AGAIN?!  But, I turned my music up louder and just tuned out.  My second lap was much slower than the first.  I broke mentally and began to walk....mistake!  When I started back into running - oh boy did thing tighten up!!!  Wowzers!  But, between the sidewalk chalk, the volunteers at each water station and an occasional familiar face cheering me on from the street - I made it!  I was at a walking point coming up to Starbuck's - I was telling myself then that when I hit Starbuck's I was running from that point on - no matter what!!!!  I began running - and as i was passing the church still on Illinois I wanted to start walking...as I was having an inward argument with myself....I looked up and saw a boy with a gazelle-like stride coming at me...that's when I realized it was my 14 year old son coming to find me!!!  Oh well...that made the tears start!!!  We ran past the church and around the corner.  When we passed the church's sign I was met by my youngest 2 sons!!!   What a feeling coming down that home stretch with my posse beside me leading me home!!!!!!  And then to look up and see my Cici standing at the finish line with open arms and tears streaming down her face...I can't put that feeling into words.  There are absolutely zero words that would do that feeling justice!!!!!  I stood and sobbed in her arms - which I never thought I'd break down like that!  And then the love from everyone else just poured in!!!!  To have that medal hung on my neck - I DID IT!!!!!  Something that I never in a million years thought would be on my bucket list - I had just checked off and it only took me 2 hours and 45 minutes!!! 

I wish I could've bottled all the love that followed in the next hour!  With each brother or sister that crossed that line - the feeling of being so proud of them and the tears....there were a lot of happy/proud tears from everyone!!!!  I wouldn't trade those moments for anything in the world!!!!

Sunday I tried to move around quite a bit and didnt feel too bad!!  However when Monday rolled around - lets just say monday was rough!!  I tried to run and ended up only being able to walk because my legs hurt so bad.  BUT, I did it!!  Our monday night class was fantastic!!  We had a panel of alumni who talked with us and gave their testimonies!  I got so much from them all!!!  AS I sat there - I found myself really wanting to soak every second of that night in - as it was our last class together as contestants!  (tear) 

Today (wednesday) was our last workout together.  (tear) We started our with a timed mile.  My original time was 15.30....today I did it in 9.26!!!!  I was able to run the entire thing and actually felt pretty darn good while doing it!!  After the run - Cici gave us an intense workout.  I'm not sure why today felt like day 1 - but, everyone was whooped!  We had 2 pukers - it took 15 weeks - but, there they were.   HOnestly I thought I was going to a few times!!!!  But, it felt great to get my bootie kicked!!! 

It was a very sereal (sp) feeling when Shane said "Amen" and we were finished!  I found myself not wanting to move from my spot - but, had to.  I wiped tears the entire ride home.

I am so excited for tomorrow - Dodgeball!!!  And to see everyone's costumes!  My plan is to lay low until i get pummeled.....and then it's game on boys and girls!!!!

6/30/17

How the heck can it seriously be Friday June 30 already?!  I mean really!! I am so incredibly "antsy" today!  I can't seem to concentrate much on anything!  Thankfully I have an amazing work family that is so supportive!!  They are keeping me going today - for sure!  I just wish we could all meet at Deer Ridge tonight and just get it over with!!! 

Last night I was amazing!  The gifts of love keep coming from FWSW - My heart is so full right now!  First I got my make over (which was so much fun) and then I found my dress for the finale!!!  That is a big weight off my shoulders - whew!  Now just to accessorize...my favorite part!  A huge shout out to Salon Renew for pampering all of us contestants yesterday!  They were so much fun and did a great job!  Thank you ladies!!!! 

When I think about what this next week holds - it's very bitter sweet.  Although it's going to be so exciting and fun - at the same time my heart is breaking because  not being able to see my FWSW brothers and sisters on a daily basis....makes my heart hurt!!  I pray that we will all stay connected in some way!  It is really cool to see how fast the bonds were formed!  We truly are like one big family!!!!

Thank you FWSW for bringing all of us together to change our lives for the better!!!!

6/27/17

Boy oh boy...last night's blind weigh in was tougher than I thought it would be!  Tina, Rick and Katelyn must have practiced their poker faces...because they didn't give us any 'clues' as to how anyone's weigh in went!  Great job friends!!!  kiss   But, in season 10 fashion....the mood in the room was light and super supportive!!!  I just can't tell you how much I love everyone in the group as if they were blood relatives!!!  We all have this connection that can't be described with words....just trust me...it's amazing! 

Our class for the night was with all our dieticians and it was so informative!!  It was pretty amazing to see all of those ladies sitting before us who have given us their time over these past 14 weeks....that makes me sad to type 14....because it means that this portion of my journey is coming to a close.  I got a lot out of last night's class...thank you to all the dieticians!!!! 

I will say 1 thing about season 10....we do love to laugh....and work hard...like 110% hard!!!!

6.26.17

Saturday was an amazing day!  The first 3 miles we did beginning at Deer Ridge and I was able to run those pretty smoothly.  And I exchanged my 'Large' race shirt in for a 'medium'!!!!  That was so exciting for me....it is tighter than I am used to - but, I am trusting that my FWSW fam wouldn't let me wear it if it was too tight!  wink  From Deer Ridge we went over to Summit Middle School to participate in the Run Like a Hero 5k to benefit organ donations.  I feel proud that we were able to run in this race.  I felt pretty good right up until I hit Homestead Road (the home stretch) and that's when the hills on Covington caught up with me.  I walked only until I could get my breathe back on track and then I kicked the running back in.  I love the fact that our running coaches come up along side of you to 'bring it home'!  Ashley is so supportive and aweome!!!!  Thank you Ashley for supporting me in all the runs!!!  You are a rock star!!!

Today I feel like a bundle of nerves!  I had an extremely rough night's sleep - which means I didn't run this morning at Deer Ridge like I normally do - As bad as I felt at 4:40am - I felt worse for not getting up and just going!  (one lesson I'm taking away from this experience)  So, when I get off at 3:30 today - I will be getting my 40 minute run in before weigh-ins tonight. (which are blind - also making my stomach a mess)  Running before hand does make me nervous because the last time I ran before a weigh in I GAINED a pound!!!  Oy Vey! 

At this point I am just ready for saturday to be here!!!  We have trained so hard for this day!  Can't wait to put that sticker on my truck!!!!!!

6.23.17

Today is a great day!  Cici's workout was tough but, so much fun!  Something that keeps running thru my head that she said this morning..."you get out of your workout what you put in to it!"  Those words are so true!!! Those words made me work even harder today and push thru the "pain"!  I feel so blessed have been chosen for season 10!  God puts people in our paths for specific reasons...reasons we may never know....but, we are all here in season 10 for a specific purpose.  Whatever those reasons/or purpose - I am so blessed to be able to call everyone involved in Season 10 not only a friend but, family!  I have so much love for each one of you!!!  And i have learned something from each person!  Thank you so much!!!!

6.20.17

Forecast today (over my head) Stormy......

It's sad how 3 numbers can extinguish the tiny flicker of self-confidence you have created.  I am trying so hard to keep my chin up after only losing 1.2 this week - but, it is completely crushing me today.  I feel like it's week 1 all over again.  This past week - I have pushed myself in workouts harder than I ever have.  And my eating has been on track...so to be farther from that weekly average to lose the 50 has me totally defeated!  I fought tears the entire workout.....and have been all day.  Is 36 pounds still ok - yes....but, not being on track is debilitating!  I talked to Stephanie (nutritionist) this morning and asked her go over my diary again - to help me find what I'm doing wrong. 

This crummy morning has over shadowed the amazing evening we had last night!  And that is upsetting.  Eddie Merlot's graciously opened their restaurant to us - 60 people!!!  We learned that the owner donated everything for us last night!!!  The chef that created all our meals equaling 500 calories spent so much time and thought on it!  And he was so fun as he explained all the dishes!  Everything was crazy good!  The whole experience was so great!  I will definitely be supporting Eddie's when I can - without a doubt!!! 

It was so great to see everyone all dolled up!  You could really see the progress with everyone - since they were in dress clothes!  Season 10 is a great looking crew!!!  Rock Stars shall we say?!

For now, i need to find a way to get through these next 2.5 weeks without losing sleep from stressing about my dreaded 'number'!!!!  I don't know how NOT to focus on that....I guess try to workout even harder and pray that my nutritionist can find a flaw in my diary to correct?!  I can already feel the tension in my shoulders....ugh!

6.19.17

It feels so amazing to type that I completed 10 miles this past Saturday!!!!  I tried to stick to the 1:9 as best as I could, but couldn't quite finish with it.   The last 4 miles were really tough!  I'd say at about mile 7 I couldn't get my shoulders to "release" and come down from my ears!!!!   And at 9.5 my body felt like it was just done!  But, I had a great friend running with me and she encouraged me the last quarter mile to just run!  I can only imagine what a great feeling it's going to be when I cross that finish line for the half!!!!  I'll be a crying mess!!!!  For sure!!

Starting today, there is no more intervals with our run...it's just .....run!!!!  I am tickled pink to tell you that out of the 50 minutes - I ran all but 30 seconds of it.  And that is because I broke mentally.  I did a self evaluation ...do your legs feel like giving out?  NO.....Are you lungs on fire?  NO....Well, then ....let's start running!  And I did!!!  Wow...what a feeling!!!  Running is so mental!!! 

I am so excited for tonight!!  We are going to Eddie Merlot's for dinner with our FWSW family.  We are all looking forward to just kicking back and enjoying each other....without water bottles, towels and sweat!!!!!  It is going to be an awesome evening!!!  Thank you Rick, Tina and the Eddie Merlot's Chef for planning this meal!!!!

 

6.16.17

It feels great to have this week's challenge all wrapped up!  Rick REALLY turned up the heat on us with this week's challenge!  It was exhausting!  But, now that it's finished....I feel stronger and so proud of myself!

This morning's workout was a good one!  EJ got creative and it worked muscles that needed worked!  It was both fun and hard!  (who knew a tough workout could also be fun?!)

As the day is going on I am feeling very anxious for tomorrow's 10 mile run!  Yikes!  I have a nervous stomach just thinking about it!  I can't even imagine what the friday before our half will be like or the morning of!!  surprisedcrycool

And to piggy back on feeling anxioius...just thinking about Cici's Wednesday's workout...my oh my.....The butterflies in my stomach will probably be able to drive me into workouts on Wednesday!!  Ha!

There has been a lot of talk about what we're all going to do after July 8 and we won't be seeing each other on a daily basis...I can remember someone saying to us in the beginning how there will be tears at our last workout and I was thinking "Really?!"   Well, I am eating my thoughts!  Because I get all emotional already just thinking about it!!!  I am really going to miss everyone!

6.14.17

So, I want to touch on our run from this past Saturday.  We completed 9 miles.  For the first 6.2 we did 1 full lap of the course.  I felt pretty good up until mile 4, which is just inside Dells of Covington (or Covington Dells...I can't ever remember what it's called).  As you enter the subdivision it is a pretty good incline that you have to climb and that emptied the tank saturday.  But, thankfully Mama T was with me and talked me thru it!  I struggled my way up '14' and completed my loop...I remember thinking to myself..."I can't imagine running a second loop!"  And that's where I needed to stop myself - because I have learned that so much of running is mind over matter!!!  I am getting real anxious for July 1!

After we completed our loop we headed down to Headwaters Park for the VisionWalk.  I was so honored to be a part of Team Michaela!  It really felt awesome to give back!

Last night I completed the first of the two challenges this week!  This week we have to do 135 stairs, 650 ft on Jacob and 16 down and back's with the sled - back to back and let the timer go until we finish all 3.  Let me just tell you - I was sweating SO ridiculously bad....I was kind of embarrassed!  I mean awful!  But, I finished in an hour and 12 minutes!  I'm hoping to shave off a few minutes tomorrow night!

So far this week EJ and Cici have really up'd our workouts in intensity!  This morning Cici told all of us to be ready for next Wed's workout....because it will be the hardest workout we've ever done!  OK - now I'm scarred!!!  I just pray that I'm not the first one to throw up!  yell  But, at this point...I'm game if it's going to get me to that 50 pound mark!!!!! 

Tonight is our 50 minute run - I am praying that the rain holds off so we can be outside! 

Knowing the end is near is so bitter sweet for me!  I'm going to soak all of it in...the good and the bad!  I'm ready to finish week 12 strong!

 

6.13.17

Today start's week 12 and I still can't believe that!  Last night's weigh in was ok - I am down 3.2 which takes me to 35 total pounds lost.  Now, I know that's nothing to complain about...but, I so badly want to be on target to lose the 50 pounds!  My entire life I've loved a good challenge...well my friends this is one heck of a challenge!  I feel like I've got that carrot dangling in front of my face and I just can't quite reach it!!!!  And that frustrates the heck out of me!  But, I am determined to work harder and finally hit the 50 by July 8!!!!!

6.11.17

I'm sitting here in spieces bistro after finishing my third challenge,  actually enjoying some rare quiet time... Reflecting back over these past 11 weeks .  I find myself getting choked up when I think that this time with these individuals I now consider family is almost over!  I want to really soak up these next 4 weeks !!

Yesterday was an amazing day! We did a total of 9 miles! We did one complete lip which equals 6.2 and then did the VisionWalk for 2.8 miles.  It felt amazing giving back to a great cause and to be a part of Team Michaela!! Together we raised $20,000!! Wow! 

I'm not going to lie... After the 9 miles and sorting at baseball for the rest of the day... I was completely exhausted and sun  burned!  Which is why I threw in the towel early and had to finish my third challenge on Sunday (rest day). 

I am so honored that FWSW chose me to be a part of season 10 and to help me change my life for keeps!! 

#blessed 

6.6.17

Last night's weigh in was a big one for me!  I am finally under 200 pounds!!!!  whoop whoop!  It's been probably 4-5 years since I've been under 200....and that's a statement I vow to NEVER say again!!!!  I love my new healthy habits and I don't plan on changing them!  Also, last night when we had to give Tina our sizes for our race shirts (which are going to look amazing) I put down a size that I haven't even thought of in over 6 years!!  I guess you may want to know what size that is....A MEDIUM!!  say what?!  At this point I'm a little nervous about that size...but, like Michaela and Katelyn said "you still have 5 weeks to go!"  So, I went with it!    cool

As excited as I was to finally be under that 200 pound threshold....being still under the average to lose the 50 took some air from the ol tires....SOOO, I'm going to refocus and buckle down to have a big week and finally..be...on...track..to...lose ...the .....50!!!!!! 

This morning's extra love was no joke!  Rick really stepped up the game with adding weights to the sleds half way thru!  But, we rocked it out...because that's what season 10 does!  wink

It's going to be a crazy busy week.....bring it!!!

6.5.17

What a beautiful morning!  I am really finding myself looking forward to my Monday morning runs!  I can definitely say without a doubt that morning runs after these 15 weeks will now be a staple to my routine!  Working full time outside of the home and a mom...whew....why didn't I fall in love with this MUCH sooner?!?!   And while I'm on the topic of things that have "stuck" during this program is meal prepping!  I've always planned out my meals on Sundays...but, I've never meal prepped.  Wow...again...why the heck didn't I ever do this in the past?!   This is a game changer!!!!

Well, Saturday morning I completed 8 miles doing 3 min. walking and 7 min running.  Without sounding vain...I haven't felt that proud of myself since giving birth!  Seriously!  It makes me look forward to the next 5 saturdays!!!  I can't wait to have the feeling of accomplishment after the 13.1!!!!  And honestly afterwards I didn't feel awful! Now, i was sure tired and things were achey on me that have never been achey before...but, it wasn't awful!   One thing I love about the peeps of season 10 (including all the incredible alumni) is the sense of family!  whether is it the cheering on during a run/workout or everyone hanging out after a run/workout truly enjoying each other's company!  It's so cool to see how we all came in as strangers and now consider each other close friends/family!  We've each made friends for life!!!

Today starts week 11!  I can't believe that we've already completed 10 weeks! These next 5 weeks are going to fly by extremely too fast!  Which makes me sad! This week is jammed packed with goodness....wednesday night for our run/walk we are doing German Fest's 5k and then Saturday we have 9 miles.  I think we are doing 6.2 on our FWSW course and then we are all hopping in our cars to finish up with a 2.8 mile walk/run for VisionWalk17.  I am so honored to be a part of Team Michaela this Saturday!!!  For so many reasons!  This young lady ..... wow... she is faced with so much and has such an amazing outlook on life!  She makes me want to be a better person just by living her life with such a positive attitude!  Thank you Michaela!!!

This program has made me such a better (healthy) person!  Even more than I expected!!  Rick, Tina and the trainers have helped me create such great habits, healthy fun habits!  I will forever be grateful to each one of them for all the love and support they have poured out over each and every one of us!!!  And the amount of alumni that keeps coming back to help give support speaks volumes to what a phenomenal thing Rick and Tina have created!!!  They are such a blessing to myself and each one of us!  I will never be able to say thank you enough!

I can't even talk about tonight's weigh in....makes me nervous....I'm so close to a milestone.....I pray that tomorrow I have something to rave about...stay tuned.....kiss

 

6.2.17

I've been meaning to blog about something for a couple weeks and keep forgetting to include it! (chalk that up to being tired)

Well, since I'm not blowing thru the numbers on the scales like I thought I was going to, I'm learning to appreciate and relish in the "non-scales victories"!  My latest n.s.v. is simply crossing my legs.  I know it may sound like such a simple and every day thing...but, I am finding it easier and easier to simply cross my legs!!!  And that's exciting!

Also, one of my favorite parts of each morning workouts is when we all come together at the end.  When we lay our hands on each other and pray...you can feel a "spiritual webbing" (for lack of better words) connecting each and every one of us! I get goosebumps during the prayer...every time!  I just love feeling the hand of God at work!  innocent

5/31/17

Well, now that I've had a few days to cool off after Monday afternoon's weigh in....I can blog.  undecided  I started off my Memorial Day with my 50 minute run (3:7) and I've got to be honest, I really struggled with it!   I'm not sure if i waited to late in the morning and the heat got to me or what.  I've never had trouble with allergies in all of my 41 years.  But, lately I've been noticing that if someone has mowed or the air feels heavy, My runs are a little rough!

You could say that weigh ins didn't go exactly according to my plan.  When Rick started off my weight with a "2" I seriously thought he was joking!  OH NO...he wasn't....Yep 200.6. yellyellyell  I so badly wanted to finally be on track to losing the 50 pounds AND be under 200 pounds for the first time in 4-5 years!!!  But, I still lost 2 pounds...but, it did sting a bit...ok a lot!!!!  ARG!!!  I'm learning how instrumental our mental attitude is when it comes to this weight loss journey.  I went in to Monday afternoon with a flicker of the confidence I used to have and then after that let down of 2 pounds, I found myself sitting thru the rest of nutrition class feeling frumpy, fat and ugly once again!   How quickly one spark of bad thinking can blow up any ounce of confidence!

But, yesterday I woke up and had an "AA" (attitude adjustment as my old coach used to say) with myself.  And it's carried into today! Today is the best I've felt in quite some time.  I can honestly say 100% I feel amazing!  1) Today at work, my dress pants are a bit big and I was able to pull them down (without unbuttoning them) to use the restroom!!!!  TMI, I know...but,....I think I'll be retiring these promptly at 5pm!   And not to the back of my closet (just in case) oh no...to the good will!!!!!  whoop whoop!!!!   2) This morning during extra love I did real push ups for the first time in I don't know how long (not pretty but, i did them) and I was able to do core exercises again!!!   I honestly can't wait for my core to be sore!!!!  That's a good hurt!  3)  I feel like I rocked Cici's step class!!  It was super tough but, I made it thu!   4) Mama T taught me that you CAN have your shoes too tight!!  (oops!!!!)  embarassed   5) For the first time since I started my journey, I am not falling asleep at my desk!!!  Yeah!!!  (huge)

Words cannot express how incredibly blessed I am that God has placed me in Season 10's FWSW!  Rick and Tina's vision to start FWSW over 10 years ago has effected SO many individuals lives for the better!  No one can say that they are not a better person for knowing and being loved by them!  This program is filled with so many amazing volunteers who only want the best for all of us!!  It's so cool to see God's hand at work!!!!!!innocent

 

 

5.25.17

For some reason today my muscles feel like week 1. I'm not sure what the change is....but, today I'm definitely feeling that "good hurt"!  That means things are a change'n!  Last night we had to run in doors due to the terrential down pour that was happening out doors.  Even though I was totally bummed to be inside....there are always silver linings to each grey cloud.  I feel like I really pushed myself harder last night (all credit going out to our amazing trainers) especially on the walking portions of the "run".  I've learned not to get offended or upset when you're being pushed or challenged to push yourself harder, but embrace the fact that they are pushing you because they love you and know that you CAN do it!!  As Cici told me last night after we sprinted the last minute or so "See, you DID have extra gas in the tank!!!"  As I was full out sprinting, I felt as if my body was waking up!   Like pistons that haven't fired for a loooong time were finally firing!!!   It felt amazingly awful!!  The song "I Get By With a Little Help From My Friends" keeps running thru my head....That is the theme song for my day!!!  Because these men and women ar not only our trainers, they are are friends!!!!!

5.24.17

I can't believe we're in week 9 already!  Its going WAY too fast!

I'm relieved to say that Monday night's weigh in was pretty descent.  I wasn't feeling stupendous - so i was unsure.  I lost 3.8.  So, that takes me up to 25.8! I was pretty pleased.  Now, I am really pushing it this week BECAUSE, next Monday's weigh in could be a double whammy!  Not only could i be under 200 pounds, I potentially could be FINALLY on track to lose the 50 pounds!!!  If that happens, I've got a dance all prepared!  Watch out people!!  (ok, no one will really see it...but, I'll definitely be doing it in my head)  tongue-out

My energy level seems to be trending...wednesday's are R.O.U.G.H. for me!!!  I nearly feel asleep today at my desk!   I know it doesn't help that my son Nathan has baseball games on tues/thursday's (late).  But, what I said last week where life goes on and keeps spinning even though we're in this program.  So, I suck it up and sit at his games late....this could be his last year playing baseball and I don't plan on missing any minute of it.  I've learned to soak up every minute with my boys, because it goes WAY to quick and there are moments you just can't get back!

I hope that tonight it doesn't lightening...I'd love to run in the rain! 

5.19.17

Wow, what a week!  I have so much that i want to type, but not a lot of time.

If anyone thinks that we as contestants get a break from life during these 15 weeks, think again!  This week I seem to have jumped aboard the crazy train!!!  The week started off amazing with that 6 pound weight loss and then proceeded to go down hill picking up speed along the way!

With my son's confirmation and party this weekend and guests here, I'll admit I didn't shop and meal prep like i needed to, and this weeks meals have been a struggle to throw things together.  Work right now is well, just stressful and mix in late night kids baseball games..... equals watching this week fall like dominoes!

Wednesday started rough.  I was probably the most tired I've been these past 7.5 weeks.  During Wednesday night's run/walk my body paid the price of a crazy busy week.  We were doing our usual 50 minutes of 5 minutes walking and 5 min running.  The first 25 min were rough.  On my way back my legs didn't want to work right and then out of no where I was struggling to breathe!  I mean it was like someone had a plastic bag over my mouth.   That in turn scared the life out of me which made it worse and then the tears came.  THANKFULLY, we are surrounded by the most amazing caring trainers and contestants!  Ashley was able to talk me "down" to the point of being able to finish the time walking.  And Navy's nutritionist, Jenny, was right there as well keeping me going!  Thank you ladies so much!  Well, when we arrived back to the starting point everyone was so supportive - i just love my FWSW family!  

Momma T talked to me about what my food intake was pre-run.  I humbly admitted that i had eaten only carrots, guac and almonds at work in the afternoon.  It took me having this scare to really see the importance of good nutrition before you run/exercise!  I can't stress how much Rick, Tina and all the volunteers care about us!  It's so wonderful! When you hear everyone call out "Momma T" and "Papa Rick"  .....  that is so spot on because they genuinely care about each one of us like family members!

Thursday morning rolls around and I wake up with a horrific migraine.  I didn't make it to thursday's pool workout.  Which stressed me out even more!  I was stressed and exhausted so, my body slammed on the brakes and forced me to stop.  Thankfully i was able to get a great nights sleep and can say today I feel like a brand new person!!!

This morning's workout was a tough workout- - but, fun!  I was able to do a sprint down the court!  Definitely something i could not have done 7 weeks ago and that's just so exciting!!! 

I am ready to tackle tomorrow's 7 mile run/walk!!! 

Week 8 is in the books!!!cool 

 

5.16.17

laughing....that was the face I left with after last night's weigh in!!  Finally!!!   And if i had a dancing emoji...I would have plugged that in as well, to represent my happy dance!  I lost 6 pounds this week!!  That put's me at a total of 21.8 total pounds lost after 7 weeks!  AND I was the top female for "loser" this week!!  whoop whoop! 

I think after the several "bad" weigh-in's - it made this weigh in feel that much better!!!  You've got to go thru the lows to truly enjoy the high's!!! 

Each week Michaela goes above and beyond on her own and spoils that week's male and female top "loser".  This morning she handed a bag to me and it meant the world to me!  This young ladies outlook on life speaks volumes!  I am learning so much from her in this aspect of life!!  Her giving heart and positive attitude is something we all should strive for!  She is turning lemons into the sweetest lemonade you've ever tasted!!!  Michaela, you are touching so many lives!!!!   God bless you sweetheart!

I feel this last week was a turning point for me in so many aspects of this journey.  I am finally understanding this whole food thing and how we can help use food to turn our bodies into fat burning machines!  I had several chats with my nutritionist, Collen and Stephanie, on how or what i could do different with my food.  I wanted to know how i could use food as a tool in my weight loss.  I asked what the lowest amount of carbs in grams I should be consuming a day and what was a good number for protein.  Right now I am keeping my carbs between 130-140 g/day and protein right around 120g/day.  That was the only thing i changed this past week - and my body responded!!! 

I also think that increasing the amount of running we're doing now has also played a roll in my 6 pound loss.  All I know is whatever the combo, I am feeling great both physically and emotionally!  Now, i know that I'm still on this crazy roller coaster ride and there could easily be another mountain of a hill i will have to climb and a straight away i have to push thru to be able to enjoy the thrill of the free fall!!! 

This past Saturday we completed 6 miles!!  I never in a million years thought I'd type that 7 weeks ago!  We walked 5 minutes and ran 5 minutes.  Which feels great to type!!!  I felt great right up until my 5 mile marker.  The last miles I really struggled with!  My legs weren't responding when I tried to run....so I had to walk but, kept trying to run every few yards.    It will be interesting to see how my body responds this saturday when we are scheduled to run 7 miles.  I am actually looking forward to it!  wink

Sunday was not only Mother's Day, it was my 8th graders Confirmation.  It was just a beautiful day all around!   We had a party for him at our house afterwards to celebrate.  Someone asked me as i was sitting eating the lunch I had made for myself (not the pulled pork/homemade mac and cheese ect...) "how do you do it?  Seeing all this delicious food and sit and eat a salad?"  My response kind of took be by surprise to be honest!  I told her that after doing everything "right" and not seeing the weight fall off or actually gain a pound, it is SO not worth straying from the course.  And when you train your brain to eat what's healthy for your body, It really isn't hard not to say "no" to the bad food!  Now, when we broke out the cake, that was hard.  It was hard because my mom made it and I've grown up on her cakes.  I feel like it was my want to dig into it was more about tradition than it was wanting to eat it.  Don't get me wrong...her cakes are a-mazing!!  innocent  But, I made it thru the day not really feeling tempted at all....and that is a huge accomplishment!!!  And it felt GREAT!!!!! 

I am ready to tackle week 8!   I'm ready to keep the momentum rolling!!!!  (insert happy dance emoji)

 

5.12.17

This morning I'm not going to sugar coat anything....I feel broken emotionally and physically this morning!  Cici really worked us hard today!!!!   I'll admit that I was about to start crying...simply from giving my all and hurting from head to toe.  But, somehow I managed to choke back the tears and push thru.  I'm finding it hard to keep my eyes open this morning, which is not a good thing when you're work needs to be accurate!!  It's going to be a long long day!!!  And the outlook for some down time .....yell....let's be real...what's that?! 

But, while getting ready for work, i just kept telling myself to think of what this old body is going to look like come July ....and then in Christmas...that's when I want to hit my 140pound mark!  All this pain is going to be worth it!!!  And i'm never going back to what I looked and felt like 7 weeks ago!!!!!!

 

 

5.11.17

Today was a pool day - if anyone thinks the pool is a "day off"....well, think again!  We worked our tails off!!  And it felt great! 

This week has been great mixed with a little disappointment.  I didn't have to do "extra love" this week but, i chose to do it.  Why?  Because it's an extra half hour to better myself!  Well, on the first exercise with the exercise ball, I tore scar tissue from my c-section in my lower abs.  I have never felt pain like I felt that morning!  WOW!  So, i had to resort to just walking instead of finishing the 30 minutes.  I'm just thankful that I can still do everything except lower core moves!!!

I have never been so thankful to be so tired in my life!!  I'm tired because i know i"m working my tail off and pushing myself beyond places I never knew existed!! 

Last night we ran 50 minutes of 5 walking and 5 running.  It's so cool to see yourself getting stronger each week!  Even though it was tough to finish the 5 minutes...I did it!!!  And didn't keel over!!  I can't wait to see what the next 7.5 weeks brings!!!

I'm so ready to crank it up yet another notch!  Some how....I"m determined to hit the 50 pound mark....not sure how to make up the ground...but, I'm hell bent on doing it!!!!!

5.8.17

WOW!  What a gorgeous day!!!  It's crazy what a little sunshine will do for your mood and mental attitude!!  This morning I did something I haven't done is quite some time...I ran 5 minutes STRAIGHT....FOUR TIMES!!!!!   Mixed in with 4 five minute walks.   But, what a way to start week #7 of my FWSW journey!   WoooWee!!  It's great!  cool

I can't believe that we're almost half way thru...it's going way too fast! 

I'd be lying if I told you that tonight's weigh in isn't "weighing" heavy on my mind...but, I've come to the realization that I am sticking to the course and not straying...so, what will be, will be!

I will forever be grateful to Rick and Tina, all the trainers and the entire FWSW family for all the love and support they give each one of us!!!  We are so blessed!!  kiss

 

5.3.17

Monday night's weigh-in went better than last week - that's for sure!  The scales showed me 4.8 pounds less!!  For a total of 12.6.  Whoop whooop!  Buuuut, I'm still not where i need to be.  After week 5 I needed to be at a total weight loss of 16.something to be on track for the 50 pounds.  So, that let some air out of my balloon.... but, that did buy me a ticket for the extra love train!  And it is exactly that!  It's more like an invite to better yourself that not everyone gets!    I am hoping that one of these weeks all the extra love will build me a snowman!!!   (a girl can dream)

I'll be real honest, besides the workouts and nutrition being a challenge, keeping my spirits up is a real struggle here lately!  Which is unusual for me and frustrating!  But, not seeing the weight fall off like it is for the majority of everyone else....arg!!  I also feel like I cry over everything!  Which is driving me crazy!  yell  But, if one thing positive comes out of it...I've been praying more - a lot more! 

I will tell you that I am definitely feeling this weeks "extra love" and workouts!  Muscles hurt on me that I had forgot about!!  Ouch!  But, if you've ever worked out before, it's without a doubt a good ouch!  for sure! 

Today is a new day and so is tomorrow....At least the sun is shining today!!!  That is a beautiful thing!!!

4. 29.17

Last night I worked out with CiCi. Unfortunately I had to stop due to not feeling well. Even though I was disappointed that I had to stop, CeCe did teach me one thing, how to really push  myself and get out of my head!  She showed me how I  should feel when doing the elliptical properly.  I have never pushed myself to the point of being scared of  not being able to breathe...  But you know what... I lived! I'm anxious to workout with her again when I'm not feeling like I can't be more than 10 feet from the bathroom! (tmi I know... Sorry) 

This morning I pushed thru not feeling 100% and did the 5 miles!  It's a great feeling when you push down the voices in your head telling you to just stay in beg because you don't feel good and get up get dressed and just do it.  I managed to run every one of the 3 minute runs (slow jog)... But I did it!  And the light rain felt great!  I kept hearing Rick's story in my head from yesterday morning about the army ranger telling himself... I'll quit tomorrow.  Only I told myself you can rest this afternoon.  And it worked!  

I love everything about this program!  It's teaching me so much about myself and how to get and stay fit and healthy!   And this morning for once in my life I listened to my body instead of my pride.  I wanted  so badly to keep up with my sweet friend April. She was running 4 (maybe 5) and walking 5 (I'm  so proud of you girl!) .  But, I listened to what my body was telling me and just stayed the course at 3:7.  5 weeks ago i would've not listened to how is feeling and let my pride win and pushed myself too far.  Doing more harm than good.  It's so awesome to see my friends getting stronger both physically and mentally!  

So now it's time to rest up.. And do the stairs one more time this afternoon. 

 

4.25.17

Alright, so last night didn't go how I may have envisioned it....BUT, it did re-affirm one thing to me....I HAVE THE MOST AMAZING FRIENDS AND FAMILY...hands down, the best!!!!!  Maybe I needed this to happen to remind me of that? 

The food lab that The Olive Twist (loved), Colleen (purple's nutritionist...love) and the St. Francis students and Bev put on for us was outstanding!!  Thank you all for giving your time to help us along our journeys!

This morning was rough getting up for "extra love" kiss but, once again as soon as I see my FWSW family members.....My mood changes and it's game time!  I just love that!

One last thought for the morning....Whoever thinks losing weight is easy has more than one screw loose!!! It's tough, not only physically but, emotionally.  The emotional part of this has really thrown me for a loop and taken me completely off guard!  I feel like I'm a mess....tears come to me WAY too often!

But, While flying around my bathroom this morning a thought popped into my head....more like an outlook....I'm going to look at my journey like an amusement park (bare with me)....as you approach the gates you see all the high roller coasters and hear all the laughter - cant wait to get in!  What you don't see until you have have paid your admittance and committed to the day is all the boring rides that just go in a circle (like the little motorcycles).  You also don't realize how long it takes to get up those high hills - before you can enjoy falling straight down! You also don't see all the lines you have to wait in to get to the exciting times!  But, if you stick it out through the boring times and exciting times and close down the park, you walk away feeling fantastic! You leave with memories wanting to keep coming back! 

I don't know if that makes sense now that i type it...but, it sure made sense this morning!!!!

-Momma Bear out! 

4.24.17

Happy Monday!  Well, yesterday I ran my first 5k in like forever!  I was blessed to have a great friend join me and give me such great support throughout the entire course!  I didn't run as much as I thought I would but, it was a starting point!  I believe my time was 45 min and some change.  BUT, we did get stopped by a train right at the end of the course...which we timed at roughly 2 min 20 sec....so...maybe 43 minutes and some change?  It felt great helping the children in Haiti while building my endurance and health!  AND it was a gorgeous day for the race!

God never ceases to amaze me....while grocery shopping yesterday evening, I was feeling kind of down for no particular reason.  That's when an acquaintance was pushing her cart towards me.  I have met Raeann thru a mutual friend and have seen her several times over the years but, have never really talked much to her.  We said hi and instantly started a conversation like we've known each other for years!  She is a FWSW alumni and asked me how things were going.....after about 20 minutes of amazing conversation (and about 30 shoppers giving us "the eye") we hugged it out and went our separate ways.  I left with a little pep in my step and a fresh breath of air!  God knew i needed her pep talk and support!  Its so cool to see that even the alumni that we don't see in the gym with us are still following our journeys and are supporting us!  Season 10...we are now a part of an amazing family!  We are so blessed!!!!

Tonight I am so pumped to have to chance to go to St. Francis for our nutrition meeting and weigh in.  I am optimistic for tonight's weigh in....I feel a good number coming my way....stay tuned!!

 

 

4.19.17

Monday night's weigh in was pretty good, another 4 pounds bit the dust for a total of 8.8.  I can't believe we're in week 4 already!  It's going way too fast! So, I've decided to kick things up a few notches!  I'll never get these 15 weeks back - so I need to give more than 100% to make the most of this gift that has been given to me!!  And I also feel like I'm behind the eight ball with my first weigh-in being so low...so, i have to make up some ground! 

This morning Cici called me out (in a good way) for my effort.  Even though hearing my name called out for what I was doing makes me totally uncomfortable, it gives me a little extra kick in the butt to push harder!  When Cici found me after workouts to see what changed, I found myself getting all emotional. (and i'm not sure where that came from?!  It kind of bit me on the butt!)  But, I explained to her with Easter being this past Sunday, my husband and I decided that our boys were old enough to watch The Passion and really grip what Jesus went through for us.  That is it more than just stories we hear about in Church and Sunday School. As we sat there watching, I kept hear this voice telling me that the pain I'm feeling in workouts is nothing compared to what Jesus suffered.  Watching him carry that cross and pushing through his pain was hard to watch.  But, it lit a fire in me big time!  My body is his temple, he gave it to me and I did this to it!  So, getting it back to the best it can be - healthy - is my cross to bear.  I know this may not make sense to some but, this program is not only teaching me to be healthy, it's strengthening my relationship with God!

I can't thank Rick and Tina for giving me this gift - I intend to dig deep, go above and beyond to make the most of this gift!  Thank you Thank you!

4.17.17

Well, this morning I gave the 5:15am (yes a.m.) spin class a try and loved it!  Setting that alarm to go off at 4:30 am was a little intimidating but, I've learned if you just put your feet on the ground when it goes off and not give yourself a chance to think about hitting snooze - it's not bad at all!  Mind over matter!  And during the class I found myself thinking - "man, i'm not sleepy in the least bit!"  What a great way to kick off my day and week 4 of FWSW!!!! 

Yesterday was not bad at all!  I managed to stuff Easter eggs without putting one thing in my mouth!!!  (or even up to my lips for a lick) tongue-out  It's amazing what you can accomplish if you change your outlook on food and life....and stay focused!  For our Easter meal, I went with a breakfast casserole for everyone else and my favorite kale, egg, veggie and salsa omelet.  For me it was less temping to make breakfast food than the traditional Easter spread.  Everyone was happy!

Tonight is a weigh in night....and I'm excited and nervous!  I never want to get my hopes up too high....even though i've been more focused than ever....but, I'm starting to see my clothes fit a bit different....in a good way!  So we'll see.  All I know is....I WANT TO KEEP THAT MEDAL!!!!!  It's been great hanging on my bathroom mirror and in my kitchen....as a in your face reminder...stay focused!!!!

#fwswstrong #purpleproud

4.13.17

CAUTION....PIT PARTY AHEAD.....

I'm not going to sugar coat this...today I am one grumpy momma Bear!  I am tired, everything on me hurts and I'm frustrated that when I look at the amount lost chart...I'm the lowest amount lost!  But, I'm trying to stay positive.  At least I'm  not up 4.8 pounds! 

ok - pity party over...cry

Last night was our first group 40 minute group walk/run.  I am not sure why it seems a lot harder than Monday night!  Could be because last night I was with the group and it made me push myself even harder!  That is why I love being a part of this group so much.  There is nothing but positive energy and encouragement.  You can see that everyone is giving 110%, which makes me push down any "stink'n think'n" that may creep into my brain and push through! 

I'm anxious to see what tomorrow's workout brings.  (a little scared too)  Even though i'm hurting right now, I know that these aches and pains only mean that my body is a change'n!  And that feels great!

4.12.17

I want to say that this past Monday night's weigh in was MUCH better!  I was down 3.6!!!  I can't tell you how relieved I was to hear those hands clapping!!!  When I look at the overall totals I'll admit that it's a little tough to be the lowest with pounds lost...but, it only makes me work harder and push myself further!  My total weight loss is 4.8...not bad but, certainly not where I want to be that's for sure!  but, I'll take it!

To me beginning last friday the intensity level has been cranked up a bit - and it feels good to really feel your workout during the day!  Friday was the first day I thought I was going to heave and I even had to choke back the urge to cry!   When I want my body is screaming at me during the workouts and I feel as if my arms/legs/butt is going to fall off my body, I hear Cici's voice saying "if it doesn't challenge you it doesn't change you" and it makes me dig deep and to get through that set!  You definitely have a sense of being proud of yourself after each workout - proud because when your body is telling you to quit - your mind snaps it's fingers and says "dig deep sister, you can do this, Finish strong"!   I'm learning that not only are we working on our bodies, we are also working on chaning our minds and the way we think!  It's awesome to reconnect with my old athlete mentality! 

This week we also started incorporating running into our walks.  When we are doing our group walk/runs on the trail, I kind of go inside myself and see my purple shirt running the half marathon and crossing the finish line.  Right now it does feel like a long shot but, my goal is to run the entire 13.1 miles!!!! 

One more thought and i'll stop rambling.....I am so utterly proud to wear my purple shirt when I'm working out on my own.  My second work out is usually walking/running on the trail around my house or on the trail by my son's baseball field.  The encouragement I get from strangers is so uplifting!  When you know you're representing FWSW it makes you work all that much harder!  I'm truly honored and blessed to be a part of this!  Thank you so much Rick and Tina for this opportunity!

wink

 

4.10.17

I have gone a little over 3 weeks without a single drop of diet soda.  (which is a big deal)  I am amazed at how my cravings for naughty foods have diminished!  I mean, I don't really miss the snacky foods i used to eat and the diet soda I consumed on a daily basis!  On my drive down to Purdue this weekend, I told my mom that even though I lost 1.2 pounds, I felt amazing!  My energy level is thru the roof and my mid-section doesn't feel as "sluggy".  I even feel more clear headed!  It's been awesome!

Tonight's our weigh in night....I'd be lying to you if I told you I was nervous as all get out!   Even though I've corrected my mistakes and have been giving 110% at workouts, after last week's 1.2 pounds lost....I am a bit on edge.  But, I'm also really looking forward to the night as well.  It's great getting to chat with everyone, pick up tips from each other and getting great advice from our nutritionists!!  I can see why the alumni said that when our we walk away from our last workout together, there'd be tears!  I find myself missing everyone from Saturday morning to Monday night!!

Peace out until after the weigh-in!

4.5.17

One side note ...THANK YOU SO MUCH to everyone who has left me a message!! I can't figure it how to "like" or reply... I really appreciate all of you!! 

4.5.17

This mornings workout was a tough one! It felt good to push myself and really work up a sweat!  I'm feeling pretty good right now, but I'm sure tomorrow morning will be another story! Thank EJ for kicking our booties!  

I'm not sure if anyone was able to see the sunrise this morning... But wow!!... God  is so Good! Now,  I'm a song person... So as I was pulling onto 69...a Britt Nicole song came on the radio.... You're Worth More Than Gold ... That song mixed with the amazing sunset and double rainbow....i felt that God was telling me that one disappointing weigh-in was not going to get me down!! 

 I know I'm sounding like a broken record but, the love and support within the FWSW family floors me!  Yesterday morning during my warmup laps I was trying to avoid eye contact with anyone after Monday nights weigh-in, afraid if I did I'd start crying again.  That's when Rick came along side me and wanted to check in with me.... Which opened up the flood gates of tears! But it was so great to have those words of encouragement! No judgement, just pure positivity! We are so blessed to have Rick and Tina in our corners!! 

I also have to give a shout out to the alumni who also had so many up lifting things to say!! It was so touching! And just what the doctor ordered! It truly is a family! 

4.3.17

ok, now that I've stopped crying long enough to see the key pad...tonight was so extremely difficult to hear that I was only down 1.2.  Pity party over.....it's time to regroup. Even though I didn't have any "cheats" and drank enough water to kill a cow.....I think it was the couple days where I didn't plan well and I was under 1200 calories that did me in.  From now on I will NOT be under calories!  I have to do this, I have to lose this weight and get healthy!  Yes, the wind is out of my sails tonight...but tomorrow is a new day.  I dont ever want to sit in nutrition class fighting back tears.....and I WILL NOT do it either!

 

4.3.17

It felt so wonderful to get into the pool and swim laps for an hour!  I am so greatful to Spiece for allowing us to use the pool!  After adding my exercises to my fitness pal, I was a little concerned about how many calories it said I was to consume.  So I contacted one of my nutritionists to ask how I was to get all of them in.  Well, now I am in panic mode because all week I've been going off of what My Fitness Pal said as far as calories.  Well, I learned something important today.  (And I'm a little embarrassed I I didn't know this).  I learned that I still need to stay at my 1400 calories per day to make weight loss happen, even when excersising .  And if you think about it, that makes perfect sense!  So, I quickly scanned my week to see how many days I actually went over.  Unfortunately there were a few days I did go over.  I am kind of freaking out for tonight, to be completely honest!  And a little sad that I kind of lost a week with adding my excersise into my calorie count.  I pray it doesn't show on the scale tonight!  Stay tuned....

i must add  that I am incredibly grateful to have such amazing nutritionist on board with team purple! Thank you so much to you both! You ladies rock! 

4.2.17

Wow ...this week was full of ups and downs for me! In the beginning of the week I was practically falling asleep at my desk by the end I actually had energy!  I wish I didn't have to tell you that I had a night full of tears... I think from exhaustion?   But as I sit here tonight I am feeling stronger, like I'm starting to be in control of my food choices.  I feel like I've made some smart choices and for that I'm kind of proud!  I can't wait to see what the next 14 weeks bring! 

Tomorrow night is our first weigh in... And I'm kind of nervous! I've worked so hard this week... I pray it shows tomorrow night! 

3.31.17

Well, week one of our morning workouts is in the books boy and girls!  Although I'm feeling tired and sore, it's a reminder of the positive changes I'm making in my life to get back to my healthy lighter me!  For me mornings are tough to get up - but, something that Rick said in orientation gets my bootie out of bed when that alarm goes off at 5am is "When you find it tough to get out of bed in the mornings, think about all the applicants who didn't get picked and don't have this amazing opportunity to do what you are doing!".  I replay those words in my head as I'm reaching for that alarm and I'm ready to go!  Even though we all are tired, as soon as you walk into Spiece and see everyone and feel the energy....It's like that morning cup of black coffee!!  I love it!

Can't wait to see what next week holds!

3.29.17

I just can't begin to tell you all how amazing this program and staff are!!  I mean really!  It is so cool to see the friendships and bonds that are already taking place.  It is a good feeling knowing that everyone is or has been in my shoes!  Yesterday was the first morning workout.  Although it was tough, it felt fantastic!  Team Purple was one of the teams who had to do the timed mile.  The love and support up on the track , let me just tell you, was so great!  There might have been 3 teams up there but, you wouldn't have known it.  Everyone was encouraging each other.  It felt good to push myself to get a descent time.  Having a teammate pushing me to keep up helped so much, which with lit a competitive fire in my belly!  Even though I lost track of my laps (and possibly ran 1 too many) my time was ok for my first time 'back on the horse'.  I can't wait to see what my time will be when we have our second timed mile! 

This morning's workout was rough, I'm not even going to kid you!  The exercises that we were doing looked simple but, they made muscles burn that I'd forgotten about!  Isn't it funny how something that hurts so much can make you feel so good afterwards?!  Even though things do hurt, it's a good hurt.  The sayings that Cicili had us repeat this morning have been running through my mind all day and I think will stay with me for a long time: "if it were easy, everyone would be doing it!" And "If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you!"  How true, how true! 

Tonight is our first running group.  I am actually looking forward to it.  I still can't wrap my brain around actually running 13.1 miles....yes, running....my goal is to run the entire race!!!  Believe and you will achieve! 

3.27.17

OK... So I have to tell you about my mini panic attack yesterday in Kohls dressing room... I'm trying on sports bras, that in reality look and feel more like contraptions...  boulder holders for lack of a better term, when reality set in.  The realization that the image before me in the mirror was going to be in front of 25 plus  people Monday night!!  That's when the dressing room got extremity warm and TINY!  I mean this midriff hasn't seen  the public since 1994!!  Yikes!  Thankfully I was able to call a great friend who is a FWSW alumni to talk me off the ledge!  (Thank you Richelle)  

I have to be honest... I am really getting nervous for tonight's first weigh in!  I didn't think I'd be this nervous! I guess it (meaning actually taking my shirt off and being in my shoes bra) will be like ripping off a bandaid... Don't  think about it... Just make it a good quick yank!  But I'm so excited to just get started! I'm ready to push myself beyond what I thought was possible! 

Other than being nervous... I am feeling like a million bucks.  Today I've started clean eating and tracking what I eat and I'm track to go beyond my recommended water consumption!  I know it won't always be this easy, but I'm ready for the road ahead!  #performancepurlerocks 

 

3.23.17.  My mind is going so many different places right now...I have so many thoughts I want to type....not sure what to type first.  First of all I am so excited and blessed to be a part of FWSW season 10!  It has been the boost of motivation I needed.  It feels great to be focused and motivated to lose this weight and get healthy!!  I can't even begin to tell you how motivating the orientation was on Sunday!  It was incredible!  The love and support that was in that room....mind blowing!  I most definitely can't wait until season 11 when I am up there giving my testimony and giving my support to the season 11 contestants!    

Last night I went to Three Rivers Running Company to get fitted for my running shoes.  To be honest, it was a little intimidating walking up to the front door as I am not a runner, but They were so great to work with!  I was surprised at how encouraging they were to everyone!  I love my shoes and they feel so good!  My shoes and I are ready to begin this amazing journey, not just for the next 15 weeks...but for life!  

A huge thank you to Rick,Tina and the entire FWSW support system for this life changing opportunity!  I won't let you down!