Jessica Creekmore

Octane Orange Team

I am married to David. I have three kids: Austin, Kendahl and Justin. I also have four step-daughters: Shelby, Abby, Savanna, and Breanna. I enjoy reading, volunteering at church and spending time with my family. 


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07/02/17

First of all, I just want to say that I completed 13.1 miles yesterday!! Can I get a heck ya?!! My husband ran it with me, mile for mile, minute for minute.  God love him! LOL.  We ran the first 9 miles with a 5:5 interval which put us half way at one hour and 30 minutes. By mile 9, we were both feeling it in our legs and knees.  By mile 10 were done running.  By mile 13 I couldn't feel my legs and David could barely walk due to his knee pain.  But when we rounded that last corner and heard everyone cheering us on I had to run to the finish.  It was so amazing to have my husband and my son running with me at the end.  Especially, having Cicely waiting for me to hug me, that was one of the best parts.  She was so instrumental in my running and it was so special to have her there.  I'm so proud of all the contestants and what they accomplished.  To think that 14 weeks ago we thought it was a big deal to walk to the fire station and back.  We did it!! 

At the beginning of the year, our Pastor told us to think of a word that is going to represent 2017 for your life.  My word is Love.  At the time, I thought that I needed to show others love and show my family more love.  Well, God definitely had another idea for my word in my life.  These last few months I have been humbled time and time again and have been show the awesome love of God.  He has shown his love to me through the acts of others over and over again. I now know that was definitely the right word to choose but I did not fully understand God's plan behind it at the time.  Dave Ramsey is the founder of Ramsey Solutions and Financial Peace University. In order to become debt free, he states you have to follow the baby steps.  The last baby step is baby step 7: Build Wealth and GIVE.  We learn that we are stewards (managers) of God's creations.  And when we give and serve we become more christ-like.  A bi-product is becoming less selfish and becoming more prosperous in all areas of life.  We are encouraged during financial peace to envision your own baby step 7.  David and I have had numerous conversations regarding what we would do.  As I look at Rick and Tina, they are living baby step 7.  They are self less and giving without expecting a monetary value in return.  What they want is for us to prosper.  They have given us the tools and now we are to use them.  Proverbs 13:22 says "A good man leaves an inheritance to his children's children."  By now I believe we all feel that Mama T and Papa Rick are our second set of parents.  They have given us this inheritance to pass on.  We can pass onto our children's children the wealth of selfless giving, nutrition, and fitness.  When this program began, I had no idea what I had gotten myself into.  Now I don't want to get out! Everyone has become family and we love one another as we do our own family.  No one is jealous of one another or mad that someone else has lost more weight.  We really only get mad at ourselves because it is our own fault if the numbers don't reflect positively on the scale.  We were all there for the same reason and that was to learn how to be healthy.  We have accomplished that and over 1200lbs lost proves it! As we get ready to close out week 15, I cannot express the amount of gratitude, love, and respect I have for the entire Fort Wayne's Smallest Winner program.  They changed my life, my husband's life and my children's.  The changes occurred mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  I learned that I am a good person, a strong person, a confident person, and I can do anything that I set my mind too.  I learned that God really is with me every single step of the way.  I learned that friends become family.  I learned that even in the depths of sweat, pain and soreness, I crave to do it again.  Today in church our sermon was about 1Peter 2:12 "Live decent lives among unbelievers.  Then, although they ridicule you as if you were doing wrong while they are watching you do good things, they will praise God on the day he comes to help you." A lot of people on are following us on social media.  Way more than what we are aware of.  I had someone tell me that other day that they are following me and to keep posting my progress.  This is a person that never comments on my facebook posts or likes them nor do they text or call to tell me that they are following me. The integrity of Smallest Winner is astounding.  People want to be us, the contestants! How many times I have heard, I need to start eating right or I need to start exercising.  My co-worker started using my fitness pal because of me and lost 6 pounds in a month.  As a contestant, your influence is everywhere and people are watching you.  What an awesome responsibility! And we didn't even know about this responsibility because we were trusting the process and by trusting the process we are leaders! I am so proud of all of the contestants.  Even though this week is the last week, I'm confident we will all stay close because we are family now.  Thank you FWSW and I will make you proud :)

06/24/17

This week has been very rewarding.  We had dinner at Eddie Merlot's on Monday evening and it was AMAZING! Was so blessed by the food and to see everyone looking so beautiful and handsome.  Then Tuesday morning we had our weigh in and I lost 6.2 pounds!!! Holy Cow! I was so stoked! I cannot wait to hit ONEderland :) CC's workout was super intense on Wednesday and I was dripping with sweat when I left and felt like I was going to puke. My tank was definitely empty.  Then today was our Run Like a Hero 5k and I had another PR.  The amazing progress that everyone has made is so awesome.  I enjoy running now and never in a million years would have ever thought that.  I have plans to continue to run three days a week after the program ends.  I want to run a 5k every Saturday!! I love the running atmosphere and the community.  One thing that has struck me this week is that it is almost over.  That makes me sad.  Everyone has become my family and my sisters.  Not being able to see everyone everyday is going to be hard.  Not being yelled at by CC is going to be hard.  Not having Mama T giving us stern instructions is going to be hard.  I mean, what am I going to do without extra credit????? When I started this program, 15 weeks seemed like such a long time and now we are two weeks from being done and I don't want it to end.  I am so thankful for everything I have learned and received during my time as a contestant.  I cannot begin to thank everyone enough.  But as Shawn said during his speech at Eddie Merlot's, the only thing we can do is to continue making everyone proud of us and our accomplishments.  Which I plan to do.  A special thank you to my husband for being by my side even when he can't run and being a good sport.  I love you all so very much!! God Bless.

06/17/17

This week has been physically challenging.  Rick gave us a challenge to do that included Jacob's Ladder, stair stepper and sleds.  Let me tell you what, that kicked my arse! Plus, we ran A LOT of miles this week.  We ran 10 miles today and I just can't believe that I did that.  I mean, 12 weeks ago when I sat in orientation and they said that is what we will do, I was like, "Ya, right." But now its only two weeks away and I believe I'm going to finish the mini.  My goal isn't to win but it is to finish.  I have a habit of not finishing what I started unless I have a lot of encouragement.  This program does not ever lack encouragement. Ever. I do want to give a shout out to my husband.  He is such a trooper and hangs with all of us. He did the challenges right a long with me this week.  And he ran 10 miles with me.  Even though his "encouragement" the last two miles made me want to ring his neck, I'm super blessed to have him.  He's such an amazing human being <3 I'm excited for weigh in on Tuesday because I really want to hit 218lbs.  I haven't weighed 218lbs or less since 2008.  And 218lbs means I will have lost 50lbs since the start of my weight loss journey that began in January!!  I know my weight hasn't been coming off like I would like and I had a nice conversation with someone about diet and discussed it with Jen.  I have made some changes and hope I can see them on the scale.  David and I have been talking a lot about what we are going to do after the program.  One, its sad to think it's coming to an end because I'm not real sure what I'm going to do without my team and my FWSW family everyday.  Two, I know that I need to be accountable in the kitchen and the gym.  So we are looking into different options to see what would benefit us the most. We plan on continuing running and entering 5k because we really like that distance.  Maybe a few 10ks but that would have to be for a real good cause...LOL  I thank God everyday for the health I have received and continue to receive.  Without this program, I wouldn't have that.  I thank the entire FWSW program for helping me get to where I am.  Love you all!!

 

06/10/17

First, I would like to take a moment to apologize to Rick and Tina for not blogging last week.  No excuses other than I just plain forgot.  I thank you for your wonderful comment even when I didn't blog.  

If I had to sum up my season thus far in a song, it would be This is What Love Feels Like by Toby Mac.  Here is the link to the music video with lyrics https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=reWLIs51e2Y. I listen to this album while I run and each time this song comes on it reminds of why I'm out there pounding the pavement.  This song reminds me why I'm doing what I'm doing.  This song reminds me that I am a loved and honored child of God and that His love is the ultimate agape love.  

The lyrics are as follows and I'm going to add my interpretation:

"Love Feels Like"
(feat. DC Talk)
I am tired, I am drained
But the fight in me remains
I am weary, I am worn
Like I’ve never been before 

I feel this part of the song represents how I feel throughout the week.  I am always tired and drained but I keep fighting on and coming back everyday.  And the tiredness and exhaustion I feel does make me feel weary and worn.  And I have never experienced this type of physical exhaustion in my life.  

This is harder than I thought
Harder than I thought it’d be
Harder than I thought
Takin’ every part of me
Harder than I thought
So much harder than I thought it’d be
But empty’s never felt so full

When people ask me about the program, I tell them that it is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life and it is harder than I ever thought it would be.  It takes every ounce of what of you have mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually to get through each and every week.  But this is where it gets amazing, even though my tank is empty my cup is so full.  I have never felt so full in all my life.  I feel that God has found me my family that I have been praying for and need. 

This is what love (this is what love)
This is what love
Feels like
This is what love (this is what love)
This is what love
Feels like
Poured out, used up, still givin’,
stretching me out to the end of my limits
This is what love (this is what love)
This is what real love
Feels like
This is what love feels like poured out,
used up still willin’ to fight for it
This is what love feels like
Yeah, this is what it feels like

Just as it says, THIS IS WHAT LOVE FEELS LIKE.  The trainers make you pour out every ounce of yourself until you feel used up everyday because they love you.  The nutritionists chastise your food choices everyday because they love you.  Michael and Lennart show up to record your journey through pictures and videos because they love you.  Rick and Tina show up everyday to make sure you are still givin' and stretching yourself to the end of your limits.  EVERYONE is loving you through your journey and it is REAL love.  Jesus is loving us through each and every person.  My team is right by my side each and every day pouring out all they have into their journey and they encourage me and love me.  That is is REAL love.   

Like floating confetti
The beautiful gets messy
When the fall out finds the floor
But in the depths of the trenches
Is the richest of riches
Love is calling us to more

When I hear the beautiful gets messy, I think of all of us coming into workout in the mornings, all of us beautiful and then we sweat and get messy. I have found myself in the depths of the trenches and that is where you find your riches: your grit, your determination, your compassion, your reasons, your purpose.  Then when you find those riches and reveal them to your trainers, team and Rick and Tina, they shake their heads and hug you because they already knew about those riches.  They were just waiting on you to find them within yourself.  Their love IS calling us to more.  

This is what love (this is what love)
This is what love
Feels like
This is what love (this is what love)
This is what love
Feels like
Poured out, used up, still givin’,
stretching me out to the end of my limits
This is what love (this is what love)
This is what real love
Feels like
This is what love feels like poured out,
used up still willin’ to fight for it
This is what love feels like
Yeah, this is what it feels like

There are mornings, especially this past week, that I felt stretched to the end of my limits.  On these mornings, I love myself through it.  I have learned that REAL love is loving yourself and be still willin' to fight for your weight loss, health, fitness, and family.

And now these three remain
Faith, hope and love
But the greatest of these is love

FWSW takes the broken and gives them hope.  Then they start believing and they begin having faith in what they are doing.  But oh the greatest of these IS love because the love you receive from the FWSW family is unimaginable and indescribable.  

It’s worth everything you put in
Everything you put in...
Love
This is what it feels like

The self worth you gain is worth EVERYTHING you put into it.  The trainers and Rick always say you get out of it what you put in.  If you put everything you have mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually, then this IS what love feels like. 

Poured out, used up, still givin’,
stretching me out to the end of my limits

This is what love (this is what love)
Feels like
This is what love (this is what love)
This is what love
Feels like
This is what love (this is what love)
Feels like
This is what love (this is what love)
This is what love
Feels like

This is what love (this is what love)
Feels like

Poured out, used up, still givin’,
Poured out, used up, still givin’,
Poured out, used up, still givin’,
stretching me out to the end of my limits

When I could not work out for two weeks due to my heart issues, the love and support that poured out to me was so amazing.  I would text Tina and she would be my voice of reason and let me know she is praying for me.  It made me feel so incredibly special and humbled that someone that is as busy as she is would take time to pray for me <3  My marriage has been strengthened because of the FWSW family.  Because my husband supports me and does workouts and challenges, he shared this with me via text on Friday. "I felt great riding!!! I have not felt this good in years.  Running, losing weight, pushing sleds, loving you, stair climber everything.  I can actually breathe." My marriage, health, and life is better because I am a contestant for FWSW.  My team has been my rock and they are the most amazing people and they are my family.  The women of Season 10 are my friends and we are making plans to do things after week 15.  I have made mental, physical, emotional and spiritual lifestyle changes in these short 11 weeks.  It is so surreal what LOVE can do when it is given without expecting anything in return.  

5/28/17

This week has been discouraging and disappointing. I'm having some issues with my heart and my doctor put me on limited exercise until we can figure out what is going on. I miss working out and miss my team.  Cicely and Tina always tell us what a privilege it is to work out and have your health. I have definitely learned this week that I have been taking my health for granted.  I miss sweating every day and being so sore that I can't move.  But I will be back doing it soon! Everyone has been amazing with their support and concern. I don't know how lived before my FWSW family!

5/19/17

This week as been tired week.  I'm not sure what it is but I have been dragging some serious behind all week.  And the others are feeling it too because I heard several remark on their exhaustion.  Monday morning a few others and my awesome husband met at 5am...that is correct 5am, to do our Monday run on our own at Deer Ridge.  It was still dark out when we started running so it was a little different from what we normally do.  When we were running back towards the school, I started looking around at all the houses and everything was still "asleep".  There was no hustle and bustle.  It was just calm and quiet.  I started thinking about the people that are in those houses that need FWSW and don't know how to get out of their rut.  So I began to pray for everyone to be able to find their own drive and will to change.  I prayed for them to find their Rick and Tina to challenge them and love them.  I was one of those people in those houses a year ago, 6 months ago.  No drive, no initiative, no will power and thank God everyday for the opportunities that I have been given with FWSW.  My journey in life has become so amazing and exciting.  I cannot wait to see what comes next.  The Season 10 ladies have a group text and that has been the most amazing thing ever!! We can discuss ANYTHING and we all UNDERSTAND.  We discuss everything from periods, to emotions to poop! And its awesome!!! Plus, its such an uplifting, non-judgement zone area.  All the ladies encourage one another with words, quotes and memes! We all know that we have each others backs :) FWSW has truly changed my life in this short 8 weeks.  It has made me a better person, a better wife, a better mom,  and a better employee.  I can truly see Jesus through those that volunteer to with the program.  I understand why Rick and Tina do this <3 One thing that has truly touched my heart is that my daughter whom is 17 went to the gym this week.  If anyone knows Kendahl, then you know that you know where just froze over :)  She tells me how proud she is of me and how good I'm looking.  Well, I would like to believe that I have rubbed off on her and have given her some motivation.  She has had a rough last few years  and she told me that it is time for self improvement.  I'm so proud of her <3 It is truly amazing the people that tell me that they have been following my journey on facebook.  People that I never thought that would be remotely interested in what I do.  But positive energy spreads everywhere! I am so thankful for everyone that has helped me on this journey whether it be physically, mentally, emotionally, or verbally.  You all rock and are such a blessing to me!!

 

05/13/17

So we are half way done.  It doesn't seem that it has gone that fast.  But I look around at everyone and we have all changed! Not only are we not the same people physically, we are not the same people mentally.  I feel week 7 has been a week for bonding.  I truly feel that not just my teammates, but all the contestants have become closer.  We understand the struggle that each other are going through.  And the support and love that we give one another is amazing! I had a few victories this week...I was able to button and wear comfortably a pair of capris that I haven't worn in 4 years.  I pushed the sled with 70lbs of weight on it and didn't die.  I volunteered to do extra credit. And I did a two minute wall sit.  Oh AND I ran 6 miles and didn't die!! I am so proud of myself and if the scale does not reflect what I did this week, I am okay with that because I gave it my all.  I'm truly thankful for my husband and his support.  I couldn't do this without him and I'm so blessed to have his love and compassion.  Rick and Tina, thank you for giving me my life back and choosing me to be a part of your family.  To all the trainers, thank you for pushing us beyond what we "think" we can do.  Jen, thank you for keeping us on track with our nutrition.  And Sonja, thank you for being there for us, listening and being a non-judgement zone.  I felt so much better after talking with you.  I love you all and God Bless!!

 

5/6/17

Week 6 has been a week of reflection on my physical and mental activities.  I started the week out with Cicely at 5am on Monday on the elliptical.  Then weigh in that night.  I lost 2.6 pounds which was a victory because 1. everyone clapped 2. it was over two pounds 3. Octane Orange won the trophy for most weight loss!!  Then Rick said that I was in extra credit again because I haven't lost enough weight to be on track to lose 50lbs by July 8.  So I was a little disappointed because I had worked my butt off for that 2.6 pounds but I still get more extra love.  So I was determined to work harder and stronger this week.  Of course, my team came to extra love to support me...again.  Well, my knee started giving me issues and I saw Gretchen at Summit Physical Therapy and she told me I have inflammation in my patellar tendon.  Now I'm working on straight leg raises and other things to strengthen my VMO to straighten out my knee cap.  Thursday I woke up with a horrible stomach ache and nausea so needless to say I did not make it to work out that day.  Friday was an awesome extra credit and workout with EJ.  Learned how to do Jacob's Ladder and was able to do it for three minutes with only stopping two times.  Did my weekly challenge with the sleds on Friday night.  I was thankful for the extra credit because I was able to do the challenge and not struggle to get it done.  My runs this week were awesome too! I was able to run all 4 minutes each time we did the interval.  There is no way I could have done that 6 weeks ago...or ever.  I smoked for 18 years and I really thought that there was no way that I would ever be able to run long distances.  Well, look at me proving myself wrong.  LOL.  Tonight I attended one of my best friend's wedding reception.  Her and I have been friends for about 20 years.  We have experienced most of our adult life's ups and downs together.  Tonight she shared with me that she "follows" all of my stuff on facebook from my pictures, to my comments and my blog on here.  She said that I am such an inspiration to her that she has shared what I am doing with her family and friends.  She told me that I am such an inspiration for so many people and that she is so proud of me.  But what she said next is what brought me to tears.  She said, "Jessica, if I ever needed a friend to help me out, have my back and get something done for me, that friend would definitely be you.  You are the strongest and most driven person I know.  I am so thankful to have you in my corner." We don't realize how many lives we are touching daily by our actions.  People look up to us and want us to succeed.  They want us to be the "comeback kids".  People want to see us have victories.  As I was driving home and thinking about this conversation, I realized that FWSW Season 10 doesn't end on July 8th, it starts on July 9th.  That is when we will rise up and apply what we've been taught in bootcamp.  We will continue to make good and healthy choices and maybe we will help others out as well along the way.  Tina commented on my facebook picture that it was nice to see my smile and I told her that I had lost it for a minute.  I let the scale get the best of me and I let my doubts into my head.  I've got this!! We all got this!! It doesn't matter where you're at in life, start now.  Thank you to all the alumni that walk with us, talk with us and run with us.  Thank you to our trainers and nutritionists for your amazing hard work and sacrifices.  And Rick and Tina, thank you so much for choosing all of us for Season 10.  I hope someday I can give back as you two have.  <3  God Bless!

4/26/17

I shared the following post on my Facebook page on 4/25/17:

 
So this past week has been super hard on me emotionally and mentally. I only lost 1.7lbs last week and 1 lbs this week. When you lose less than 2 lbs, no one claps for you because this is a weight loss program and you don't get credit for "participation". Last night was super hard after standing on the scale and I cried my eyes out because I feel I am working so hard and not seeing results. I also felt like a huge disappointment to Rick and Tina, my team, my nutritionist and my family and friends. David Creekmore was so kind, loving and encouraging when I got home. He told me to keep going and he was proud of me and gave me his best hugs! Because of my weight loss this past week, I received extra credit. This means I get to go in at 5:30am instead of 6am and I get to work with Rick for half an hour before our regular workout that starts at 6am. Well, this morning I walked in and my team was there to greet me, Dan Harper, Parker Watts, and Shawn Kinzer (Latoya N Williams was there in spirit ❤️)They volunteered to be in extra credit with me all week so I didn't have to do it alone. That made my heart just swell with love and appreciation. I have the best team ever and I'm so overwhelmed with gratitude. Bring on Week 5! #Octaneorange #fwswstrong

I am in awe of the public response of support that I received from my family and friends.  I wrote the post to let everyone know how awesome my team is and  that I'm basically having a bad week (which CiCi told me tonight that it was okay to share my struggles).  42 people commented which blew me away! I can't believe how many people are following me and my journey.  I'm just so incredibly blessed to be a part of FWSW and to be part of this family.  I'm forever grateful for everything.  Tonight was our run at Deer Ridge.  CiCi ran with me and encouraged me (maybe got a little sassy <3) to not quit.  I am so thankful for that because I do not like running at all and I shared this with CiCi.  She taught me how to pace myself and breathe while I'm running.  By the last run, just using those tools, I was able to run and not feel like I was dieing.  :)  CiCi also discussed with me on how to mentally prepare myself for the things that I do not like doing...aka running.  She states that I have to embrace it and learn to like something about it.  And as she is telling me this, I feel that she's giving me a life lesson also.  There are some things that I really don't like in life right now but I'm going to try and embrace them instead of avoiding them (which I would love to do with running LOL). It is still surreal to me that I'm going to be running 13.1 miles on July 1st.  That is still very intimidating to me but I'm going to embrace it :)  I'm especially thankful for the alumni, Lori and Dian, this week.  They have really encouraged me and gave me the best pep talks. They showed me that they really care about FWSW, all of the participants and the mission.  I'm so thankful for being picked to be in the program and that I get to be part of the family.  Thank you to Rick and Tina for having the heart, motivation, and giving spirits to help all of us.  And thank you to the trainers and nutritionists.  I also want to say a big thank you to my nutritionist, Jen.  She has been my other rock through this whole thing.  She is our team mom, our counselor, our sounding board, and our biggest cheerleader.  She doesn't have to do any of this but she does and she shows us love everyday.  She talked me off the ledge after the weigh in on Monday and has followed up with me everyday.  I love her dearly.  I'm also very thankful for my team.  God really knew what he was doing when he put us together.  We have the #1, #2 and #4 men on our team and the #2 woman!! I am so proud of all of them and how hard they working.  Even when we think we can't do anymore, one of us is encouraging you to keep going. This is what a team is and what teamwork is about.  I'm so very proud to be their teammate <3 Please honk and wave when you see us running! It's great encouragement :) God Bless! 

 

04/20/17

This week has been pretty emotional for me.  I believe it started with some family dynamics over Easter that hurt my feelings, my weigh in on Monday and has continued on a downhill slide the past few days.  Plus, I didn't have my meals prepped so I had to spend an evening doing that and missed my second workout.  So that frustrated me.  I just felt like I didn't have my crap together.  Plus, I was having shin splints so bad that it felt like someone was driving nails into my shins.  Then Josh and Mari told us that we half assed it in the pool this morning and Rick said getting up out of bed is half the battle. They were all right.  My head hasn't been in it.  Then tonight I was getting ready to go inside to walk the treadmill for my second workout and I saw that there was a Zumba class.  I asked Tina if I could go and she said yes but no jumping! I absolutely loved it!! The instructor was so energetic and fun.  The music was fun.  And the hour flew by.  I was kinda disappointed that it was over.  This really lifted my spirits and got me out of my funk.  I know this whole path to a lifestyle change is just as much mental as it is physical.  Your thoughts can definitely destroy your progress.  I am so thankful for everything that Rick and Tina, the trainers, and the nutritionists do for us.  Love you all! God Bless!  

 

04/17/17

I believe God prepared me for tonight over the last 48 hours.  I met a young lady whose friend did not get chosen for Season 10.  She said her friend was devastated but has since lost 30lbs.  A co-worker told me today that she applied to FWSW 5 or 6 years ago and was not selected.  She told me that she was hurt and upset about the decision.  Well, tonight the scale and my body said I only lost 1.2 pounds.  First of all, there was no applause which was tough and second of all, I am severely disappointed in myself.  I really felt I worked my ass off last week and I only lost 1.2lbs!! So while I was sitting in my chair, having myself a pity party, God whispered, "Jessica, you were chosen.  You are here." And that is so true.  I'm sitting where others would love to be.  So I'm getting my chin up and owning week 4! I am so blessed.  #FWSWstrong

 

4/14/17

This morning was rough.  CiCi pushed us and pushed us.  I thought my arms were going to fall off.  I am going to hear her voice in my head all day saying, "Jessica!!! I need you to punch that wall harder!!" I love how she loves us even though she says it is okay to hate her.  I love how she gets up everyday to come and help us.  I could never hate that commitment :) I'm having some problems with cramps in my shoulders, calves and shin splints.  I spoke with Jen, my nutritionist, about this and she said we may have to increase my sodium intake.  I'm currently at 1500mg/day because I have high blood pressure (which I'm hoping to resolve this after my weight loss). I had baked sweet potatoes this week and I loved them PLAIN! Oh my goodness, they have become my "sweet tooth" go to food.  I'm finding that food that tasted so bland before now has flavor to it.  Like broccoli, I don't have to smother it with cheese anymore...I just have to steam it and yummy! My husband has talked me into walking and golfing 18 holes of golf this morning.  I'm praying I make it throgh! But it will be an awesome second workout :) I'm just so full of hope and happy right now.  My Savior paid the price for me and by His grace I am saved!! Hope everyone has an awesome and blessed Easter weekend! God Bless!

 

4/12/17

Today was rough but fun.  This morning we had step aerobics with CiCi and she pushed us hard.  My quads were definitely burning!! Then we had our run tonight.  I ran 3 out of the 4 times.  I had shin splints that was causing pain when I ran.  I walked to the finish...last.  I'm not used to being in that position so that bothered me a lot.  So I'm going to stretch and do what the trainers tell me to get where I need to be! This isn't easy and there are mornings when my alarm goes off that I'm just not feeling it.  But I want to be healthy and I know this is what I need to do for myself and my family.  I'm really thankful that my husband, David, and my son, Justin, were there tonight to support me.  It felt really good knowing that they are there because they want to be.  #FWSWproud :)

4/11/17

So, I just signed up for my first 5k.  I never in my wildest imagination would have even fathomed that I would ever say that!! And I plan on running in it.  This is just so awesome.  And what is even more awesome than that is that I signed my son and my husband up too! (With their permission, of course!)  I am just super proud of the daily progress that I see.  Pushing those sleds this morning was my biggest challenge today.  Thought I was going to die and quit breathing for a second but I came out okay.  When Rick says, "I smell fire!", I definitely kicked it up about a million notches!  Everyone is so encouraging! I'm so blessed to be a part of the FWSW family and to know that they will always be there no matter what.  Yesterday, I did my first interval walk/run.  That went great.  I put on my dance cardio music and away I went.  Wasn't as boring as I thought it would be.  I found myself revving up for my two minute run part.  Then I went to spin class. Not sure that was the best idea after running because for the first time I felt like I was going to puke.  I'm sure Tina would be proud :)  I found that I need to push myself hard like that in order to succeed.  The scale said I was down 3.6 pounds from last week.  I'm okay with that but would like it to be more.  So I'm going to try my best to incorporate my second workout this week.  There is so much showering and laundry going on during FWSW.  You get sweaty, you get clean, you get sweaty, you get clean.  I was also super impressed with our conversations with Sonja last night.  It's nice to know that what I'm experiencing is "normal".  I am definitely grieving food but my sense of smell has almost become that of a bloodhound.  I just want all the volunteers, Rick and Tina, nutritionists, trainers, Spiece employees...that I'm so very grateful for their commitment and I am proud to be a part of it.  God Bless!

 

4/9/17

I have been pretty emotional this week.  An old picture popped up on my phone and I felt immediate disgust and self loathing.  How could I have ever allowed myself to look like that? I kinda of lingered on this train of thought for a day or two.  Then my husband told me that is why I am where I am at today because I do not want to look or feel like that anymore! And like always, he is definitely right! So I'm continuing on in this adventure of FWSW with the thoughts of laying on the beach in Siesta Key in my new bikini and body :).  I love how our team has become very close.  We all talk daily with one another and encourage one another.  We sometimes give Jen a heart attack by what we are asking to eat.  LOL.  But I'm proud that we all know that we need a nutrition check before we put something to our lips.  I have to say that I'm definitely turning into a morning person REAL fast.  I am struggling with working 12 hour shifts (8am to 8:30pm) three days a week after doing morning workouts.  I feel exhausted by the time I get home and haven't been getting that second workout of the day in.  So this week, I'm going to try my best to get that second work out in.  Maybe hype myself up on my drive home and be ready to go when I hit the door.  I have three pairs of pants laying on my closet floor that has become an incentive to me.  I haven't worn them in three years and will definitely feel like I'm winning when I get them over my hips...and buttoned.  I'm still in awe of all the amazing support we are receiving.  The alumni are awesome and feel that I have made good, wholesome and positive friendships.  I love that God is at the center of this because without him this would mean nothing.  I love all of the support from people (especially at work) that I don't even talk to much and I find them asking me questions and how I'm doing.  My husband has been awesome and has been by my side cheering me on the whole time.  Even getting up at crazy hours to go to the gym (5am on Monday mornings).  But I have seen a change in him also.  He's becoming more active and that may be because we put "Green fees" in our budget :).  I can't wait for my son to get home from El Salvador and start exercising with him! I love my family support! I'm nervous about weigh-in tomorrow night :/  But now I'm to the point that I will take my shorts off too if that means another few ounces or pounds!!! I pray that everyone has an awesome weigh-in.  God Bless! 

 

4/4/17

Week 2 has gotten off to a great start.  Parker, LaToya, and my husband, David, and myself attending Spinning class for the first time yesterday morning at 5:15am.  That was a good and hard workout.  My legs felt like jelly after riding the bike.  Our class instructor, Mari, was so nice and encouraging.  I really enjoyed it and will be back next week if not again this week.  Last night's weigh-in was amazing.  Our team did so well and lost the most weight.  There were also some big losses with other participants that were phenomenal.  I'm satisfied with my loss of 4.8lbs but I want to do better.  Rick says week 2 is where its at so I'm looking forward to next weigh-in.  I'm also terrified of losing less than 2lbs.  I think I would be absolutely devastated if no one clapped for me!! So that is a ton of motivation right there! I've been thinking about things coming up over the next 14 weeks.  ALL 7 kids birthdays are over the next 14 weeks, including mine, and I cannot eat cake.  This kinda bums me out because I love birthday cake but that is also why the scale says what it did last night.  Jen, our nutritionist, said to save a piece and freeze it for later.  So that's what I'm going to do and hopefully when the time comes I will just throw it away.  So family birthday celebrations are going to be different in the Creekmore household this year...more different than ever.  LOL.  Other things I think about that are coming up are family dinners at Easter, Mother's Day, Father's Day, cookouts on Memorial Day and July 4th.  Holy Cow that is a lot of temptation!! We canceled our family vacation to the Upper Peninsula of Michigan over the 4th because we are giving our all to FWSW.  So at least that temptation is out the window :) Until I have started watching my portions and calories, I did not realize how much our lives revolve around food!! I am so thankful for this program and everything that has been put into it.  

"No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind.  And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.  But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." 1Corinthians 10:13

I repeat this verse a lot in my head because God has promised me a way out of temptation.  So when I am attending family and friend gatherings, I know God will not let me be tempted beyond what I can bear.  He is going to give me a check in my spirit and say, "Jessica, that is not why we are here." I'm leaning on Him more and more everyday.  And I'm thankful for Lori's devotion this morning.  I am Peter on the water.  I just have to keep my eyes on prize which is Jesus and getting healthier.  God Bless! 

3/30/17

Today has been really rough.  The pool kicked my butt.  I'm really sore and really tired but I know that will all eventually work itself out. I ran a mile yesterday and I didn't die! I haven't ran a mile since high school.  I'm so proud of myself and my accomplishments this week.  I appreciate everything that everyone is doing to help me on this journey and lifestyle change.  I look at the trainers every morning and ask myself if I would get up at the crack of dawn to do this for others.  I believe I would to help others get healthy.  I'm a nurse and I let myself get to the point of almost needing medicine for insulin resistance. My doctor told me I would be a full blown diabetic if I don't change my ways.  He's a very smart and funny guy if he's he reading this :)  That scared me because a lot of my patients come in to my OR due to complications of diabetes.  I don't want to lose my feet!! I need them!!  So I'm going to keep going not only for my health but for my family too.  I want to spend my husband's and my retirement healthy and enjoying life.  I want to be healthy and active for my future grandkids.  I want to leave a legacy to my children that they can overcome any mountain that is in front of them.  I thank my Lord and Savior for this opportunity and Rick and Tina and the rest of the volunteers.  You all are so giving and compassionate.  Thank you.  

 

3/28/17

It has been a busy 24 hours.  I think the anxiousness has worn off and has gone to soreness in my muscles!! I'm so thankful for all of the trainers and their knowledge of knowing what to do with us because I would have no clue.  I am a little anxious about running the mile tomorrow.  I haven't done that since high school which, according to my classmates, was 20 years ago this May.  The weigh-in last night was uncomfortable to me.  Taking your shirt off and standing in front of a room full of people  in your sports bra is really, really intimidating.  But the love I felt from everyone was enough to bring me through it.  I conquered it! I'm sure it will be easier each week.  My teammates are amazing people who truly care about me and my success.  I'm so blessed to have them.  Lastly, I want to thank my husband for being awesome.  He is helping me by cooking our dinners and helping measure out calories.  Not a fun feat because calories are little boogers! They are everywhere!! David is truly a blessing to me and I'm so thankful that God put him in my life.  Thank to all the FWSW volunteers! You all rock!

 

3/20/17

I'm still reeling from yesterday.  The magnitude of love for this program is phenomenal.  I thank each and every one of the volunteers! 15 weeks is a long time to commit to something.  I thank all of you for your passion for this program.  I am already grateful for all that has been done and we haven't even started yet!  I came into orientation extremely nervous but came out confident that we will all succeed but I am still nervous.  The mini marathon is extremely intimidating to me right now! But after talking it over with my husband and son, they are going to commit to running with me two days a week and run the marathon with me!! Thank you David and Justin! My goal is to get out of the 200lb club.  So if I reach 199lb by July, I will be extremely excited.  God Bless!